Though your
last year’s resolution was to make lots of new friends but that didn’t work out
just like other plans of yours. Hitting gym regularly, eating healthy food, travelling
a lot, talking to strangers were few more in the list that you couldn’t follow.
If you have failed to wish each friend of yours on their birthdays, call or
text them atleast once a month or have failed to meet them often, then its fine.
It’s absolutely fine.
If you have felt
like you have been ignored in the parties, felt like left out in gatherings
where you have spent the entire evening sipping wine, staying indifferent to
their loud giggles that penetrated your drums and bothered you more than the
lame jokes they cracked, or in the extreme case if you have not been invited in
many occasions, friends mostly forgot to ask you for outings and if you have
been labeled a pathetic introvert, then its fine. It’s absolutely fine.
If
throughout the year you have been asked to change, people left you complaining,
even those few people who used to text you stopped to do so and your crush avoided
you every time you tried to make your move, then its fine. It’s absolutely fine.
It was
absolutely fine to be like yourself this year. It will be fine to remain the
same the next year too. It was fine that few of your resolutions failed which
could have transformed you into a different person. It’s fine to gray your hair
changing calendars on your wall remaining exactly the same you have always
been. Yes bad habits must be changed but it is not fine to change the way you
are just because you don’t fit in certain places and in some people’s lives.
If on this
New Years Eve, you are away from your family and your friends have ignored you and
have not included you in their plans, then party with yourself. Keep the music
so loud that the lyrics of your favorite tracks get soaked into your soul and
let the sound overpower the cacophony outside. If you love music let it heal
you. If you love singing, sing alone at the top of your voice. Let your
frustrations vent out and make yourself completely empty to welcome better
things in the New Year to come. If you love painting, paint that white canvas
with the colors of your choice or keep it black and white, If you like yourself
that way. If you love reading select the book of your choice from the shelf and
get yourself lost in the world of imagination and words. If you love to write,
then pen down the poem or the story you always wanted to read. Bleed ink to
fight and create tombstones of your insecurities with your words.
Introvert
they call you, right? But you are not one to yourself. You are your best
friend. So, spend the entire day with yourself and treat yourself with
everything you like the most. No one knows you better than you yourself.
So, this new
year keep yourself alive within you, even if that will cost you to walk alone.
It is fine, it’s absolutely fine.
